In Memory of My Angel

Today is the due date of the baby we lost in January. Although, I am extremely excited about this baby thats on the way, I still love and will always remember that baby. I know I never met that baby and I lost it so early but I did see his or her little heart beating and that made it so hard for me to move on for a while. I was so devastated and did not think I would ever be the same again. When I finally got some hope and put my trust into the Lord that I would carry another child, I became pregnant again. This baby Im carrying was such a blessing at such a sad time in my life. Im so thankful that he is healthy and growing and kicking up a storm inside me. I cant wait to meet him. I will always wonder what the baby we lost would have been like, looked like, but I know it is in a better place now. I thank God everyday for blessing me with my baby boy on the way. I cant wait to meet him. I feel he is already getting a little personality and he isnt even here yet. When I am talking or Hunter is talking, he starts kicking really hard to let me know he is listening. He likes to sleep all day and wake me up kicking at night. Yeah, I think I have a night owl on the way.... lol

Anyway, I just wanted to remember my little angel that would have been born today. I want to always remember this day, September 3rd, and think about that baby. It was such a blessing and came at a perfect time in my life and helped me turn my life around. I felt that when it passed, I grew closer to God and I am thankful for that. I have always believed it was a girl. I didn't want to know for sure b/c I just didn't think I could handle that. I know that one day I will know for sure.